I drank for fun, to socialize, to unwind, just like all the 'normal' drinkers. Alcohol showed up at dinner parties, baby showers and book club, I certainly didn't drink more than anyone else. And then, it changed. I found myself drinking every day, a glass of wine became 2-3, cocktails became a nightly ritual instead of the occasional indulgence. And the scary part? When I tried to cut back I failed. I was sure I could just moderate - only drink on the weekends, only have 1 glass of wine...I was a 'health nut' and a personal development junkie, of course I wasn't an 'alcoholic', or was I? After about 6 years of trying to cut back I woke to the fact that I was drinking more and enjoying it less. In fact, I found myself drinking despite NOT wanting to. Something had to change.